me and myself

One day an old man was making coffee for his wife and himself. When he was about to add in sugar into the coffee, his wife stopped him and said,” hey no sugar, dont you know that i prefer milk to sugar in coffee.” The old man shrugged and apologized,” I’m sorry dear, but usually you would be the one making the coffee so i didnt notice about it.” They were together for so many decades yet the husband couldnt notice of this little habit of his wife. Well, should he be blamed for being ignorant or should the wife just accepted that her husband was just not that kind of person that would keep every tiny thing on his mind? Was the wife expecting too much?

The wife expected the husband would notice yet it’s kinda disappointed. If he was just somebody out there then she would probably just laugh off for his forgetful mind. The old lady couldnt do anything and if she got mad for this, well i think she would be mad for most of the time as this might not be the only time that this kind of incident would occur. Hahah….. -_-

One day, a customer brought a tub of gravy back to the shop which apparently he just bought it, complaining that that couldnt be considered as gravy, that’s just a tub of coloured water. oh well, you can say that it taste horrible but that’s what they have and they sell. He asked for money to be returned and yes the staff did return the money to him, adding the last sentence before he left, “i can return the money but that’s the gravy we have”, not a word of apology could be heard…. hahah although he was right, the gravy was really sucky ..

Some people just simply wont say sorry. They say sorry for little tiny things but not when they feel guilty. They bump into you, they say sorry. They accidentally step on you, they say sorry. But when they really do sth wrong, they just wont say sorry. It’s not to say they are stubborn, but probably they feel bad and dare not to say it out. The casual sorry is not insincere but it’s just that it could be easily slipped out at that situation at that moment. There are people that have difficulties in saying sorry and thank you though not many ppl realize that. It could be someone beside you but you just dont realize it. You might think that he or she is rude for not saying sorry or thank you. In fact they are just ….shy… probably. Those two words are the most common words you can hear it everywhere but they might be the most difficult words for some ppl out there.

Well, everybody likes polite kids. That’s the natural perception. But dont jump into conclusion when you encounter anyone that doesnt say sorry or thank you, they are probably … too shy to say it out? hahaha..

Kids dont think deeply and they dont lie. They show everything no matter it’s anger or happiness. She is becoming a kid. She used to be ignorant but somehow she changed for certain reason. She doesnt like the way she is when she acts like a kid, throwing tantrum for no reason. It is annoying. She is becoming a bad kid. People hate bad kid. A bad kid doesnt deserve to get anything, that’s why …..

Heard about his news last night, getting worse … tumours in verterbrate,it just freaked me out suddenly, feel sad for him n … i think i should take my lower back pain seriously. Always think that since it has been so long n i m still alright, it wouldnt be anything so bad although it causes pain occasionally. Last december, after so much persuassion n nagging of my frens, i went to see doctor and get my lower back x-ray at hospital. Angulation of the tail bone which i cant rmmb wt’s the name again. The doctor told me it might be due to previous trauma (yup, i fell on my back almost 10 years ago) and nothing can be done (haha, this kind of doc). After that time, it got better and i almost forgot abt it. However, the pain didnt seem to forget about me, and so it came again after i worked almost 6days a week. And again, my fren asked me to get a second opinion from another doctor, and so i did it. Just right before the night i was going to meet the doctor, i fell on my back in the shop where i worked =.= hahah, i got even more valid reason to see the doctor. I kinda like this doctor, at least she took me seriously. When she first heard about my case and saw my x-ray film, she insisted me to see an orthopaedic surgeon to get a more professional opinion. Well, i guess i have no other options. I am currently waiting for the appointment to be made in public hospital, but ppl arnd dont seem like agreeing with me, hehe … they want me to go for private as it’s faster. If I m gonna wait for public, it might take up to 3 weeks time to get the appointment. Well i agreed with the doctor to go for public instead of private because at that moment my back was quite alright even after the fall. Although the pain did get worse after taht, it’s alright now. And yeah, the doctor did warn me not to fall again, hahaha… as if i wanted it so much. Erm i think i am better now, at least i can bend or carry stuff at work already. Last few days was quite bad, hahah i dun even dare to bend my back or carry stuff without squating down with my back straight. I already promised to go private immediately if i get pain again, thanks for being so gan cheung with my back, i appreciate it very much,hehe. Dont’t worry..

It’s new year !! 2007 here we come. It’s already 2007, i have been staying in this world for more than 21 years. It’s the first day of new year, nothing better to do at home. Had wondered around the whole house, stared at the comp, read novel, and cooked tong shui …erm still bored ..

one year din go back home… woo… how long will this record be held? it might be another half a year or … another 2 years. If i m not back during the coming winter, then i will only be back after i graduate. It looks far but actually time flies .. In a blink, half of my uni life has gone, another 2 years to enjoy the facility and advantages that have been set for STUDENTS. I cant see my future till now and cant imagine myself working at anywhere else. Will i end up in a white lab coat, staying in the lab looking at those chemical or biological reactions? or maybe suit up n give lecture to those kids? or … worse come to worst, goyang kaki at home, hahaha ..

I am a simple person with simple life. My live revolves arnd manga, anime, novels, eating, family and friends. Studying is a must for me, not like i can have any right to say yes or no to it. But those i mentioned before are stuff that i really like. Easy and simple. Sometimes i will ponder why my life is so simple (that’s the only word i can think about). I dont like to use my brain and therefore complicated things are usually out of my mind. Family and friends do complicate my life a bit more than anything else but yeah… i like them. They are important. My parents “cute” and childish acts can be a good amusement. I enjoy the very long phone chat with my sisters and i am glad with my brother’s once a while concern too. I contacted my family more frequent and i started to feel their “intensing” concern especially from my parents, just make me burst to laugh. Not really used to it when they first started calling me so often, erm … retiree are bored at home. hahahhaa .. Me away from home has tightened my relationship with my sisters, more exactly with my eldest sister. We can chat for hours in the midnight (my midnight n her afternoon, i m always the one gotta sacrifise my sleep) talking and laughing the whole night, talked bad about our parents, sibblings or her hubby, hahahhaa. Sometimes we would discuss what to cook for the day, reminiscing what we had at home and how did our mum cook it. Can you believe that? she cooked curry for her hubby on christmas!! But yeah, according to her, she wanted something special on that special day wo. Well, my away from home doesnt seem like drifting me away from my family, it’s great!! heheh ..

Everything looks great, but there is one speciality about my family. Other people’s family will ask them to go back home when there is holidays, but for my family, instead of asking,” when are you coming back home?” , they will ask “why are you coming back home?” =.= last year when i went back home, my sisters, my mum n my brother, asked me that question. Then after that i told them i might consider to go back home for the following winter, they shoot me with the same question and ask me to go somewhere else instead of going back home. My sis said why would you want to spend money going back a place that you have already there for the past 20 years, should travel arnd and explore the world. =.= woooooo … am i that bothering if i go back home? i doubt it ….

I am tired … tired … sleepy … sleepy …

Does it sound like i really work hard during this summer? haha, i dont think so.. currently working on two jobs, one at sushi shop, the other one work as a cleaner in a house. 3 days a week, 24 hrs a week. It doesnt sound scary isnt it? But it’s exhausting in fact. At first i thought working as a cleaner would be very easy, foooo… it proves me wrong. The work is not difficult but there are lots to do, why would a house got 4 bathrooms, 4 bedrooms and 3 halls ?? Money really doesnt come easily. When summer ends, i think i might get tanned and muscular, hehe .. aussie sun is not friendly at all, although it rains occasionally. And, i still gotta move house. Students nowadays have lots of belongings yeah, dont ever underestimate them. Although it can be said that those books and notes take up most of the weight, still…. there are lots random stuff that make up one big pile of boxes and bags. With all those carrying, standing(10hrs each shift), walking(looking for houses) and cleaning, i dont think my fat arms and calves can stay as the same,hahah ..

well, ppl arnd ask me why would i work so hard suddenly? aihhh… if i lie at home, ppl say i nua, i go to work, ppl question also … so what should i do? even though i seriously dun mind lying at home for 3 months, my mum does =.= she will definitely gonna nag me everyday and night if i just lie at home enjoying my day.

lately busy looking for house, hv abandoned my novels and drama for quite some time..erm, but not my manga… hahhaha … live without manga is kinda sad yeah … lots of ppl dun agree with me though.

夏日炎炎，暑假已过了一星期，乍听就是那么一星期，好像也没什么嘛。 可这一个星期对我来说却是多姿多彩的，哈哈哈!!
要多烦，有多烦，要多无奈，有多无奈。。 不过生活也不止于烦恼和无奈，苦乐中的惊喜和欣慰还是有的，而且让人更为珍惜。拖拉了好一段时间的问题终究还是得解决的，虽然想过要逃避，要无视它的存在，可我办得到并不代表别人也可以，而且我这种欺骗自己的方法有些人也不赞同。让我懊恼了好一阵子，虽然无奈，可是事情还是因我而起。一劳永逸的法子我是不可能有的，我那单细胞的脑袋是不太可能想出这么棒的点子。 虽然我不能真的用任何实际行动来平复已根深的芥蒂，但至少希望将伤害减到最低。我不希望看见周围的人不开心。朋友是拿来交，而不是用来绝交的。随随便便就提绝交，那种人到底把朋友当什么？朋友其实没有义务为你做任何事，就因为没有义务，所以才特别珍贵，特别值得珍惜。

人与人的关系是很奇妙且复杂的，它可以薄如纸，也可以在不知不觉间，牢牢的联系着本来不相干的人。有人的地方就会有是非，这是自古以来不变的道理。有时会懊恼为何这种烦人的事情会在自己身上发生，但如果没有了这些奇遇，我们的生活就好比一杯水，淡而无味。 虽然医生说每天需喝八大杯水，但偶尔来杯咖啡或茶，调剂调剂一下，对身体也没什么坏啦。如果那么衰，挑了一杯苦茶，那就找根棒棒糖送着一起入口，苦中有甜，固中滋味，你得尝过了才会懂。不过如果有的选， 我当然希望挑中一杯好喝的，我还不想做人上人，我还是不太喜欢吃苦，哈哈哈！！

finally till the end… yeah today is officially the end of my 2nd year, what a scary fact… i m going to 3rd year *0* .. 3rd year huh, which is a number not far from graduating =.=” ..

wooo, a year is gone .. gone again , think should hv achieved sth this year .. i guess ..

erm, after a year of cooking life, still … i appreciate my mum’s cooking much more, for those who are still at home pampered by mum’s cooking or at least, the yummy hawker food in malaysia, pleace be grateful … that’s not so fun thinking wt to cook, wt to eat for the next meal or thinking when should you go to market for grocery shopping again… it’s just getting more and more “si lai” .. sigh … although everyone does the same here… sometimes when you look at your own cooking you will realy feel like throwing up =.=” … super sien ….. eat out?? erm, definitely once a while i will do so, but … i m a poor kid, cant afford to do that all the time …

about study?? this year wil definitely tougher than last year, after all it’s 2nd year, cant expect it to be easier. For first sem, i was quite stressed out, gotta cope with work while catching up my study, what a tough student life yeah .. but anyway, i managed to survive for that .. thanks to those who were there when i broke down.. so what about my second sem of my second year, hahah … getting more and more fun yeah !!!??? it’s actually tougher …wahhh , organic chem , biotech , physical chem, immunology … go to hell !!! the whole sem was busying with assignments and practical reports .. but somehow, i found it’s less stressed up … haha, because i found sth fun… really appreciate the craziness, the dumbness, the randomness, the “horniness”, and the voilence that i found … sometimes i realised taht i might be annoying, but i dont care, wahaha … i wanna annoy you till the very end of your days…. then surely that’s not all, ups and downs always come together .. but i think that may help you to be more mature, think everything in different ways.. it’s part of live, the spice of our dull lives …

well, except studying and eating … not much stuff in my boring live …

for the coming summer break, oh yeah … hv no any special plan yet .. hopefully it wont be another waste of time only..

Suddenly thought of her that day, erm when was the last time i talked to her? i wonder … i think not that long ago, but still why would i miss her suddenly? i was quite moody that day, maybe it’s because of the songs, kept repeating …. again and again … and she appeared in my mind again and again as well .. thinking of her, tears nearlly rolled down (wondering why i was so emotional suddenly).. she has been with me for so long, but did i ever show my appreciation? pondering again …. that’s normal, i told myself, ppl take things for granted. usually you wont realise something that you see everyday is actually so important, sometimes you would have thought that it’s annoying to see it everyday, but one day when you actually lose it, you will definitely regret.. definitely … the last time i saw her, suddenly realised that time did fly pass … she was not the same anymore…. physically she is not the same like wt i thought… although the usual yelling and babbling still can be heard arnd, i think that’s what i miss after din see her for so long … hahaha .. feel bad thinking back that i hv never celebrated her birthday, why ?? for so many years, i din do anything … but she did … still remember the first birthday present i got from her was a cute alarm clock (thou chinese wont give clock as present but i hv no idea why she did) ..it’s my first present in my lifetime, i guess … but it didnt function after few years.. if not mistaken, i din throw it away, it should be in one of the boxes in the storeroom now ..

no one will be with you all the time, everyone has their own life and their own business to take care with … however she wont leave me alone, hahaha i think she will never stop worrying about me… am i that untrustable ??? her life and her business are all evolving arnd us … that’s her life time job … hahah … no annual holiday ,no on leave, no resignation…. no bonus, working over time for free …. respect ahhhh !!!!!

that’s life …. everything is so fragile and unpredictable, you wont know wt’s going to happen the next moment .. appreciate wt we have now ….

最近很忙，一箩箩的东西等着我去做，可是我还是能够腾出时间来追看连续剧。 上个星期让我幸运地在网上找到了两部我很爱的武侠连续剧，神雕侠侣和天龙八部，虽然都是大陆剧，可勉强来说应该没什么问题啦，因为我最爱的就是金庸的武侠片。 可是，看了神雕后，我快晕倒了。小龙女也太年轻，杨过有点儿太老了，于故事不符。还有，小龙女变神仙了，怎么老飞来飞去，古墓派虽然轻功了得，可也不至于凭空升天吧？ 还有，小龙女的白绸绫也太长了吧，请问当他不出招的时候，那些足以横跨重阳宫的绸绫都收到哪儿去？小龙女的白绸绫的末端应该系着铃铛，怎么也么没瞧见？最让我摸不着头脑的是那活死人墓，怎么变成一个地底湖泊，还得飞天才能出去呢。小龙女和杨过好象太暧昧了，杨过虽然不拘小节，但他对小龙女可是敬若天神，小龙女虽然不懂事故，可也不会经常将那关怀之心表露出来，古墓派的龙姑娘在还未受伤之前可是冰冰冷冷的，虽然对杨过的怜爱之心早已有了。他们在花丛里练玉女心经的时候，做得太像游戏了，好神话哦！！最让我捧腹大笑的一幕就是当小龙女被尹志平污辱后，小龙女对杨过未曾想过要娶她为妻，愤而离去的时候，小龙女竟然就飞上天了！！ 小龙女变嫦娥升天了！！ 或许是先入为主吧，我还是比较喜欢古天乐和李若彤的那一个版本，虽然我也很想看看范文芳和李铭顺的版本。虽然刘亦菲的这个版本让我啼笑皆非，我还是在看着，说到底我还是很爱神雕侠侣的。

至于天龙八部嘛，拍得也不错啦，还过得去。我挺喜欢高虎演的虚竹，而王语嫣嘛，抱歉啦刘亦菲，我还是不太喜欢你。 萧峰呢，虽然胡军挺不错的，可是我觉得黄日华比较有型，至少他胸前的青狼头纹身比较栩栩如生。大陆剧有一点好的就是他们的场地都是实景，缥缈峰，少室山，重阳宫都挺真实的。 剧中的李秋水果真是个美人，童姥也只有女童身高。天龙八部里的武功比较真实，可能神雕侠侣里的武功强调着优雅气质，所以就拍的有点神话或虚幻吧。 但逍遥派和古墓派的武功都是优美的，应该不会差太远吧。

金庸十四部小说里，我最爱的就是天龙八部，再来就是射雕英雄传和笑傲江湖，然后是神雕侠侣和倚天屠龙记。碧血剑和飞狐外传也不错。 萧峰的英雄气概和豪迈性格最让我佩服，虽然契丹人的他注定没有好下场。钝直的郭靖和古灵精怪的黄蓉也让我爱不释手。蓉儿虽然古灵精怪，可对郭靖是有够死心塌地的。没有她，郭靖不可能拜得了洪七公为师，也不可能学会九阴真经。而成天喝酒，被桃谷六仙弄得差点儿没命的令狐冲，潇洒的他技惊四座，凭一手凌厉的独孤九剑，对抗不男不女的东方不败，岳不群和林平之，在反抗自己的准岳父大人任我行，然后和日月神教圣姑白头偕老。杨过和小龙女凄美的爱情故事，有谁不感动。

我好像太多废话了，总的来说，金庸让我这二十一年充实多了。